My original plan was to come here today and write another funny post about life as “Bootsie”, however, I am just not feeling it. As much as I have been trying to keep a positive attitude, because that is who I am, I haven’t been able to. I would love to tell you all that I am coping just fine with my injury, but that would be a lie. The truth is that yesterday was a very hard day.
I don’t know why it was so different than the previous days. Maybe it was just that it all had time to sink in and now that I was settled into life in the boot for the next 3 weeks, I realized how much it sucked. I feel bad that the kids are asking to do things and I have to tell them that I can’t. They want me to come out in the ocean and jump waves with them. Probably not the best idea. I do have permission from the doc to go to the beach sans boot, but I am certain that jumping waves didn’t come along with that. I have been wading into the water, but for short periods of time so that I am not on my foot too long without the boot. Then they want to walk to get ice cream. It is a tradition. Again, I have to tell them “no, I can’t”. I am not an “I can’t” person.
I did a lot of soul searching last night. I also did a lot of crying. What I realized is that I don’t want to look back on this vacation with my family as a time I regret (Thanks, Mom). I want to look back on this time spent with my kids and husband fondly. I want to be able to giggle about the fun times we had. I need to stop feeling sorry for myself & move on. Focus on what I can do. Be thankful for a number of things:
This situation is temporary – others are not so lucky
I am allowed to walk – again, others are not so lucky
I have a wonderful, supportive family & group of friends
I completed a marathon (thanks for pointing that out, Kelly)
I am alive
So, I have a plan. I am taking the kids out to lunch at a place of their choice when it rains later this week or when we are too sunburned to withstand any more beach time. We may also hit up a few stores for our shopping fix. A movie might also be on the list of fun things to do, as is Putt Putt, which I am sure will be very amusing in my condition. 😉 I feel that I always feel better when I have a plan. When I start to act instead of just brainstorm. I also feel better just getting this all down on paper (or my laptop).
Oh, and in case anyone is wondering, it is possible to do a Power/Body Pump class, with a little modification, as “Bootsie”. 😉 My final thought for the day – where there is a will, there is a way.