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Reflections

My original plan was to come here today and write another funny post about life as “Bootsie”, however, I am just not feeling it. As much as I have been trying to keep a positive attitude, because that is who I am, I haven’t been able to. I would love to tell you all that I am coping just fine with my injury, but that would be a lie. The truth is that yesterday was a very hard day.

I don’t know why it was so different than the previous days. Maybe it was just that it all had time to sink in and now that I was settled into life in the boot for the next 3 weeks, I realized how much it sucked. I feel bad that the kids are asking to do things and I have to tell them that I can’t. They want me to come out in the ocean and jump waves with them. Probably not the best idea. I do have permission from the doc to go to the beach sans boot, but I am certain that jumping waves didn’t come along with that. I have been wading into the water, but for short periods of time so that I am not on my foot too long without the boot. Then they want to walk to get ice cream. It is a tradition. Again, I have to tell them “no, I can’t”. I am not an “I can’t” person.

I did a lot of soul searching last night. I also did a lot of crying. What I realized is that I don’t want to look back on this vacation with my family as a time I regret (Thanks, Mom). I want to look back on this time spent with my kids and husband fondly. I want to be able to giggle about the fun times we had. I need to stop feeling sorry for myself & move on. Focus on what I can do. Be thankful for a number of things:

  • This situation is temporary – others are not so lucky
  • I am allowed to walk – again, others are not so lucky
  • I have a wonderful, supportive family & group of friends
  • I completed a marathon (thanks for pointing that out, Kelly)
  • I am alive

So, I have a plan. I am taking the kids out to lunch at a place of their choice when it rains later this week or when we are too sunburned to withstand any more beach time. We may also hit up a few stores for our shopping fix. A movie might also be on the list of fun things to do, as is Putt Putt, which I am sure will be very amusing in my condition. ;) I feel that I always feel better when I have a plan. When I start to act instead of just brainstorm. I also feel better just getting this all down on paper (or my laptop).

Oh, and in case anyone is wondering, it is possible to do a Power/Body Pump class, with a little modification, as “Bootsie”. ;) My final thought for the day – where there is a will, there is a way.

12 comments to Reflections

  • Morning Kim! I like this new plan. A lot. And I think you will look back and have only good memories about this vacation. It is temporary, but that doesn't make it suck any less. Hang in there and enjoy all the FUN (even if it has to be modified) this trip can be!

  • Keep hanging in there! You'll make it…keep counting the days down :)

    I'm almost over severe shin (been over 2 long months), so I feel for you!

    Have a good day :)

  • Linda

    Coming up with a plan and putting it in action – even in difficult times – is always a positive reaction – and is much better than stewing in your juices. (And you are NOT a stewer! (Is that a word?)) Your happy memories will just be a bit different this year.

  • You can do it Kim! What about a raft thingie to take into the water? So you can sorta float and not put pressure on the foot? And girl get a scooter! You can motor on over to get ice cream and chase your kids down along the way. :D

  • I read a long time ago that a certain amount of self pity is actually good for us. So don't beat yourself up for not feeling your best self last night. You have an amazing attitude, and nothing keeps you down for long. And venting is good for the soul! I like Andrea's idea about the scooter. I say go for it! Enjoy the rest of your vacation!

  • Hey Kim,

    It's ok to have a bad day! What it did was help you to see more clearly and move ahead! I know how much it sucks to not be 100% on vacation! I experienced this on a week's vacation in Cape Cod when I was 4 months pregnant with Amanda. It was hot, I couldn't eat and I wound up in the hospital for one whole vacation day! It was miserable. But now, both Mark and I look back on it and laugh..although it wasn't very funny back then!

    I think having a plan and doing the things you CAN do and not worrying too much about the things you can't do is the best way to go! You will probably experience things in a whole new way! ;)

    Have a GREAT vacation. I guarantee, you will probably look back on this and laugh some day!

    Lisa

  • MJ

    Some days are just harder than others, and adjusting to limitations is often not easy especially when cherished traditions are affected. I've read of an approach of setting a short time (minutes) aside daily to just sit with the negative feelings and then outside of that time period just acknowledge them like clouds passing in the sky when they pop up and keep moving on. And it's always good to have a plan.

    Another perspective is that this is a learning/teaching experience for you and for your kids. Learning to be aware of the limitations of others, to be considerate and compassionate, to find a way to have fun in a wide variety of situations and be inclusive will serve them well throughout their lives. Let the kids help you and encourage you – kids are naturally generous that way and want people to feel better. And find a way to be goofy with it if you can – at least you'll laugh at those memories!

  • You know what? You don't always have to be bubbly. It's okay to have down days. It sounds like you used your down day positively to create a new plan. Yay!

    And, the scooter suggestion is a good one. Or a wagon – make your kids pull you to the ice cream shop! It could be a great game. :)

  • What does not kill us will make us stronger.

  • Atta girl, Kim. The injured athlete is not too unlike an injured tiger-angry, limited, and feeling completely impotent. It sucks and then it blows, it all depends on which side of the fan you're standing on.

    But you are absolutely right-it is only temporary, and will heal. Rent some bikes and go play. Walk on the beach sans boot.

    Listen to your body, and if it hurts-stop. Otherwise enjoy this trip with your family.

    Injuries are sometimes a very clear signal to slow down, relax, and enjoy the scenery.

    Putt-putt is awesome! I've been known to get down on the ground and use my putter as a pool cue-I'm that bad.

    Smile! We loves ya!

  • Thank you all so much!!! It means so much to me to come and read all the wonderful, supportive responses here.

    I love the scooter idea! The wagon idea is good too and the kids would have a blast. :)

    The pain is pretty much gone, except for the occasional twinge, which makes it even harder to behave. What does hurt is my heel from the darn boot! I did wade out into the ocean a bit further yesterday and really enjoyed watching the kids splash around with Aaron.

    Erin – I have been down on the ground lining up shots in the past!!! LOL! I stink at mini-golf. I ended up doing okay last night. :)

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