Race day is less than 2 weeks away. It is more important now, than ever, to eat right, sleep right & stay away from sick people. If you are sick & around me, please don’t be offended if I run the other way. Eating right should be a no-brainer, but that isn’t always the case. I know how to eat healthy, gluten-free, but knowing & doing aren’t always the same thing.
As a recovering anorexic I have to be careful with any changes that I make to my diet and/or exercise plan. There have been times that I find myself rationalizing that something I am doing is okay, when in actuality, it isn’t. I have a habit of weighing myself daily. Some people think this is a bad idea, my therapist and I felt it was a good thing for me. By weighing myself daily I was learning to trust myself & my eating patterns again. That was all well & good up until the past few weeks.
Half marathon training & strength training can cause weight gain. This isn’t a bad thing – this means that I am getting stronger. However, my brain sees it differently. In order to thwart any action (conscious or subconscious) on my part, I have asked Aaron to hide our scale. He giggled at first, and then I asked him to trust me. When I weighed myself yesterday I was up 4-5 pounds total over the past few weeks. I know that rationally there are all kinds of reasons for this, hence the reason I asked Aaron to hide our scale. If I don’t know, I can’t obsess. If I don’t know, I can’t act. Restricting food intake or calories at this point in my training would be detrimental to my body. Tapering is the point in training where your body repairs itself in preparation for race day and I need to let my body do what it needs to do. I need to trust.
I am focusing on whole, gluten-free foods. Lean proteins, brown rice, quinoa, veggies & fruits. For bread-y carbs – brown rice tortillas, Food for Life English Muffins or Udi’s gluten-free millet chia bread. Oh, can’t forget the chocolate & jelly beans (I really need to hit up Jelly Beans Anonymous). 
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My son and me, November 2000. This is before we were gluten-free/diagnosed Celiac.
The race is so close! Maybe we can meet up?
I'm so glad you can recognize what is healthy for you. That can be hard to do!
Thanks Heather! I would love to meet up! You aren't running it, are you? I know you are running NYC. Message me on FB and we can work it out!
Kim
This just speaks to me, Kim. With my ED past, I have to also remember that weight gain with running is normal and expected. My scale is also hidden. Self-talk is so important to me right now, as well as trusting the process that got me here.
Well said, my friend.
Amy
((HUGS)) Amy. I feel like I am living in a Twilight Zone of sorts. I have gotten up the past 2 days and it is so weird not getting on the scale. It is like my brain searches for that cue that it got from the scale to see how to begin the day. Does it begin the day feeling great b/c of the number on the scale or does it begin the day feeling irritated and subconsciously scheming how to restrict to make up for that number on the scale. Now that I have gone through a couple of days not knowing, I see that I was perhaps in a little deeper than I was aware with that piece of junk.
Kim
Girl I know you are not coming down here and didn't tell me about it. I'm looking at you Heather!
Smart on hiding the scale Kim, if it's not there you can't worry about it. As long as your clothes fit and you feel good, you're golden!
I don't weigh myself. I still see an RD every other month of so, she weighs me… I know all the rationale of weight fluctuations, but if I see them it messes with me and invites the ED side back to the foreground of my mind!
Jill,
That is what I should do. That way I am kept in line, but can't sabotage myself.
It just never ceases to amaze me the power the ED still has over "us" after all of this time.
Kim
I thought it said chocolate jelly beans and felt ill. Anyways, I tend to do the same thing with the scale, which is why I'm only allowed to weigh myself 1-2 times a week.
Sarah – LOL…no. Good call on you scale plan! If I could do that, I would. I may just get rid of it and only get weighed when I go to the dr. As long as my clothes fit, I need to get away from the scale.
Kim
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