{"id":3917,"date":"2011-10-20T06:02:00","date_gmt":"2011-10-20T10:02:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.glutenfreeislife.com\/?p=3917"},"modified":"2011-10-19T19:21:32","modified_gmt":"2011-10-19T23:21:32","slug":"update-on-me-the-battle-with-the-scale","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.glutenfreeislife.com\/?p=3917","title":{"rendered":"Update on Me: The Battle with the Scale"},"content":{"rendered":"<div class=\"wlWriterHeaderFooter\" style=\"float:none; margin:0px; padding:4px 0px 4px 0px;\"><iframe src=\"http:\/\/www.facebook.com\/widgets\/like.php?href=http:\/\/www.glutenfreeislife.com\/?p=3917\" scrolling=\"no\" frameborder=\"0\" style=\"border:none; width:450px; height:80px\"><\/iframe><\/div>\n<p>A couple of weeks back I asked Aaron to <a href=\"http:\/\/www.glutenfreeislife.com\/?p=3837\" target=\"_blank\">hide our scale<\/a>.&#160; I knew that it would only hurt me (mentally and possibly physically) to continue to weigh myself daily at that point in my training.&#160; Now that my race is over (and I met my goal) I have been pondering whether or not I want that piece of metal back in my life.&#160; Initially I told Aaron not to give it back to me until after October 16, 2011.&#160; I haven\u2019t asked for it back, and I don\u2019t know that I want to.&#160; <\/p>\n<p>There are days when I get up and feel the need to know.&#160; I want to step on that piece of metal so that it can register a number.&#160; Give me some kind of validation.&#160; <strike>I<\/strike> My brain then takes that number and uses it to dictate how my day proceeds.&#160; Do I need that in my life?&#160; No.&#160; Do I want that in my life?&#160; Maybe, on some days.&#160; I know some of you may think I am nuts to say that, but it is part of my illness.&#160; It is an obsession to know these numbers.&#160; In some sick &amp; crazy way, that number comforts me, though much more so when it is where \u201cI think\u201d it should be.&#160; <\/p>\n<p>Where do I come up with the number I think I should weigh?&#160; I am asking this not only of myself, but of anyone else out there who knows what I am going through.&#160; What if my scale only read weight in kilograms?&#160; I would be lost and have no clue, which may be better for me.&#160; Who says that I have to weigh ___lbs?&#160; Do I feel any different when I weigh 5 lbs more?&#160; 5 lbs less?&#160; Other than that initial mental jolt of excitement or disappointment?&#160; Unfortunately the disappointment from seeing a gain carries on through the day &amp; may dictate my food choices.&#160; Do my friends \u201cunfriend\u201d me because I gain weight?&#160; What am I so scared of?&#160; <\/p>\n<p>That is the million dollar question:&#160; What am I so scared of?&#160; I am healthy.&#160; I just ran the race of my life and obviously my body had what it needed to perform.&#160; If I were to base my daily food and\/or calorie intake on what the scale said in the morning, I may be jeopardizing that.&#160; So why do I feel that pull?&#160; Why can\u2019t I shake that?&#160; 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